The sea provides a healing magic that goes beyond drugs and prescriptions. It forces us to become involved with it. The ocean draws on the strength of plants from the Earth, the water that is a part of all life and the mineral salts from which our bodies are created.
I don’t know how to feel and it’s all your fault.
I’m over here telling myself, “I don’t care.” “whatever.” “I’m okay.” trying to stay distracted with just about anything!
I don’t know what to do with myself because my mind won’t stop and I’m going in circles. I’m losing it. I’m losing. I’m out of my mind. I’m not in the right state of mind. I don’t know how to fix me. This. You. Us.… … . .… . .
Focus on school because relationships aren’t a concern.
Focus on school because its the only thing getting me through my day.
Focus on school because I’m trying to stay out of trouble.
Focus on school to better myself.
In this moment…
I am alone. I do not want someone to talk to. I do not want anyone to hold. I want to be left alone and sleep.